OK going to vent a little in here tonight so let me get my soapbox... ok ... have you ever found yourself falling in love with someone that you know you shouldnt love?? maybe because you know they will never love you back or that they are with someone else??? Do you lay awake at night and think of them and dream about how things could be? Does it break your heart to know that happiness is just around the corner and you just cant touch it? Fear of rejection is a evil mistress. I find myself sometimes wondering what would happen if I just opened my mouth sometime and let everything I have inside out and see where it gets me... I have been hurt way too many times and I see happiness only a few steps away and yet my feet wont take me there.. so I turn and feel the tears as I walk away leaving the happiness and the better times behind me and I try not to look back.. there will be someone somewhere that doesnt take that much work and that much worry and there will be someone that will come for me not make me wait for them and when that day comes happiness will find me and I wont have to stand outside and watch it anymore I will be a part of it and it will be wonderful...
