iC51NerdyBitchxOGAHOWNERxHDsPORTxDNSxRGx's blog: "In General Random Crap"

It would not fit in the Mumm... DAMNIT! Ok Fubarians and Haters I have a serious question... I was with this guy for a long time and then he broke my heart and went out with this other girl he met online. I loved him then and I still love him now even after what had happen to me... yes I already know your going to say I'm crazy for still loving him but honestly I feel like he's the one and have for a long time! Anyways he lives all the way on the other side of the states and has 2 kids... so he wants me to go and live with him down there, which I totally understand because he does not want to leave his kids. Well I just got these incredible jobs out here doing what I love to do in Commercial Art my biggest being helping out with the Metal-Mare Festival that I'm excited about more then anything! Although being alone is just not in my vocabulary... I don't want to start dating anyone else because I'm scared of what might happen I've been rapped 4 times so I'm not that trusting when it comes to getting with someone I barely know and starting a relationship... I've pretty much been in a box for 5 years of my life do to getting beat in my previous relationship before him. Anyways we've talked about all this he's not up for doing the long distance type of thing I totally am because well of course I love him and I'd wait forever if thats what it took... I have told him time and time again that if he came here I'd do everything in my power to make him happy because all I want is for him to be happy! Being that I would give him massages everyday after work, sex sex sex and everything that goes along with that... i.e. sucking more cock then I know what to do with it... lmao, sending him to a great collage to become what he's wanted all along, going down to be with him and his kids every once and awhile exspecially on the holidays because we all know his baby mama ain't gonna let them come here... (bitch) opps I am not one to judge my bad! Lets just put it this way anything he wants and or needs is his on a silver platter! He's told me that he loves me and that I was the one as well... and he promised that he would come down and help me get over the whole Agorephobic thing as well but I usually get lied to so I'm not excpecting it although it would be nice! Buttttt.... (I hate those) he does not want to move here because of his kids that he only sees on the weekends most of the time. I mean its not like he has to stay here and never see his kids... and its not like I won't want to do up and see them as well with him... and even if he just comes to see me and I come to see him every once in awhile... would you not even take that chance knowing that the one you been looking for all your life you have found? Anyways my question is... what would you do if you were him? A. Stay where he is and f*ck whores and keep getting your heart broken over and over again... or B. Come if only for a little while, be with the one who no matter what happens is always there for you through it all!