In January of 2006 My parental rights were terminated to my three children. I was using drugs and being around the wrong types of men. I had to say good bye to my kids and i miss them so much. I wish that i could sit down with them and tell them how much that i love them and miss them. They are getting so big now and i have to miss all of that becasue of my selfish behavior. I lay in bed at night and think about them wondering if they think about me or miss me.
I am trying to change my life so that i can help other parents that are in my situation. I get so overwhelmed though. I currently have custody of my one year old son, and going to school full time. Some days i just want to quit because it is too hard, but i know that is old behavior for me. I just want to prevent any mother or father for feeling what i had to feel when i said goodbye to those kids. They are always in my heart. I love them so much that it hurts.
