I just can't seem to get to sleep at night anymore this is driving me and Randy completely bonkers. He is always waking up getting mad at me cause i stayed up all night watching tv again, this morning he didn't even say goodbye to me he mumbled some crude comment under his breath and then walked out the door, if he is gonna be like that i won't tolorate it i will not hesitate to walk out that door. He doesn't scare me but when he mocks stuff like that under his breath all the time when he thinks that i dont hear him, it hurts like hell i figure if you have friggin something to say , friggin say it to my face not behind my back when you think i won't hear you. I'm a woman I just say i can't hear you when half of the time i can its called "SELECTIVE HEARING" I just can't take bashes like that from someone i'm dating it reminds me too much of my ex and i just will NOT tollorate it at all, and i have told him that hurts my feelings but no he goes off on this kick of your just young you don't know anything kick. just because he is 40 don't mean horse crap to me. I damn sure know i have seen and done more things than what he thinks. sorry guys i'm just really pissed off at this point haven't had much sleep cause i'm stressing out and i know that i'm not supposed to be stressing out, but when he does stuff like that it just makes the stress worse. He and I have only been in one fight and that was it, nothing more cause nether one of us like to argue so i guess there is our problem we bottle things up and then it just blows sooner or later? I love him with all my heart but i don't want any emotional abuse and i do not know how to tell him this with out him always taking it the wrong way? ggggggrrrrrrrrr I'm so frustrated at this point i could spit, but i don't spit so i can't do that. I just don't want to sit there at night and toss and turn when i'm laying wide awake and my body won't shut down and end up keeping him awake when i know he has to work early so i get up and go to the livingroom, or come into the computer room and play solitare for a while till my eyes start drooping then i know i will pass out LOL. just my bodies way of telling me ok time for sleep now. well He gets so upset when he gets up for work and i'm awake well hells bells what the heck am i supposed to do here? i'm at a loss...
