Sarah Smile's blog: "Squeekenclean's world is CRAZY"

This time I woke up in a panic. Of course it was due to a dream "mare" I'll start from the end and go backwards to see if all can be recalled. I have a phone in my hand with the phonebook turned the yellow pages - attorney section. I'm just about to dial and this is when I wake. The place I'm in is the condo my family lived in back in CT. Although, my age is 31 and only minor details have changed. 

The reason I have the phone in my hand is due to the fact I have to get some answers on a court order of alimony from my ex-husband who has had the cops called on him the three previous nights in a row due to harassment. The court order is bogus and tries to pass it off that I will only get $85 per week (why this number is beyond me). So I found a neighborhood cop that didn't provide much help in the situation except that they had an attorney friend with them who might. She came to discuss my options but explained another type of attorney will be best for this type of ordeal, their friends brought all kinds of fruits to snack on...I remember the cherries the most.

The reason I'm so frantic about it is he used a different identity and had been messing around with two girls way under age. So I had suspicion but the girl's parents played stupid. What made it worse is that my ex is eleven years my senior. Cradle Robber! At the time of this I was dealing with my little sister's child and trying to help care for him. 

As stated in the previous nights we had been dealing with the harassment from my ex and had injured my dad by shooting him in the shoulder making him part of it but he was badly injured. From all my interrogations to the under age girls and to my ex was getting me no where...the sad part was I came home with them in there rented truck with the under age girl's parents which I could only explain as hillbilly from the courthouse which was up a steep and winding gravel road. Everything seemed fine and I had all the documentation but did not realize the falsities until I had gotten home.

Again my sister (older) plays a role of the non-caring one who is just there to help herself. By this I mean she didn't live there but showed her face when needed due to the fact she lived with her boyfriend but kept her room the same for "just in case" things didn't work out. I was very upset by this and told her she needed to leave because business was needing to be done.

Going backwards in this is getting a bit hairy...sorry for any confusion.

The night before while fighting and arguing with my ex was when he shot my dad...and I had to keep myself hidden from him to keep from getting a bullet hole myself. Was trying to reach the police for a remedy to the situation. Not only was the place not big but no where to hide safely. The entire dream I felt nothing but fear and loathsome for those who did not want to help me. At this point of my dream "mare" I have not much else to tell. 

Signed: Squeekenclean