So I'm sitting at work today thinking about the things happening in my life. The people that I've met, the friends that I've made & the people that I've loved. The friends that I've lost touch with & the ones I regret.
It kinda breaks down like this:
The people I regret:
I regret my ex-husband. I never should've married him. BUT if I hadn't I wouldn't have my son. And for all the trouble & hard times he gave me, I still love him (my son) to bits and pieces & have no clue what I would do without him. So -- I don't regret the person -- just the marriage "for the sake of our son." He left a mark (litterally since our son is Mark) on my life that can't be erased.
The people I've lost touch with:
My longest friends Sara & I lost touch a few years ago while I was still in the navy. I wonder how life has been to her.
My next longest friend Jeremiah (I LOVE YOU BULLFROG!) was there for me all though High School while I dated his best friend, eventhough he had a crush on me (sry to call you out babes). He watched our engagement & break-up. He found me again on myspace and has been there for me ever since. One day I'll make it out there to see him & visit again.
Next comes Melissa who was there for me through all the really bad men & choices. We even survived a blow-up that lasted almost a year! Our friendship is not quiet as strong as it once was, but I believe that it will get better!
Other that that, there's Mikey. He helped me in ways that other ppl will never know or understand. He mopped up my tears & tried to fix my broken heart when everyone else said "It's better this way." He was patient to a point and finally moved on past my indecisive ass. And now he has a great wife, stepdaughter and aVERY cute baby girl of his own.
The friends I've made:
Have been many, admittedly few have lasted & gone the distance. Hell, most should just be called aquantences. All have taught me something -- not to be a hooker for instance (seriously had a firend in HS that ran away and became a hooker!). Not to stay with, or even be with a man that hits or verbally abuses you or your children. Not to believe everyone you meet. Be nice to everyone, I could go on, but well I'm sure this blog is long enough already!
