I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
two drinks in you were by my side
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby
I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this
I heard this song and I cant help but realize just how much my life was impacted by him. Still is to this day. I have been married for so long now, the thought of him wanting this divorce haunts my sleep now. After so many years of being a faithful companion, after being full of love and respect for him and what he does for a living. I figured we were to be together forever. At least that is what our vows said; "Till death do us part" Both of us very much so living.
He is in Iraq. Been there for 14 months now. He says this war has changed his attitude and he no longer finds the simples pleasures in life. He says he has lost faith in everything. Even us. Meanwhile, I am here praying for his safe return, praying for his love to come back, praying he dont go through with wanting this divorce.
Life, it comes at you like a freight train bounding down the tracks at mach speed. Smacks right into you. It is at that point you wonder what the hell just happened.
