Well it is simple, the things that a person could find out about me. I like to keep everything simple but rewarding. I had that drama kind of life and honestly if it means being bored for the rest of my life, I am so up for it!! There is several years here, that honestly, is what gave me my lst gray hair. That was a devastating moment in my life, lol!! I really don't know what is the absolute right things to do in life, but I sure can tell u about all the wrong decisions I have made in my life. Would i trade those moments for good ones,or would I wish I could turn back time, no I wouldn't. Those wrong decisions, bad mistakes, loss, and heartache I had to go through as an individual in this world, gave me the opportunity to learn and grow in to a person that my family, and myself can be proud of. I saw in my life what it meant to really give to someone, when I was the one in need, when I was too broken to stand on my own. People who I didn't even know too well was there to help me mourn my sadness, bring my son into this world, and to help me see the real person I always was but was to afraid to see. Not to say I wasn't always a giving and loving person, I was too much of a pleaser and hated to be a disappointment and burden to others whom I loved in my life. Because I couldn't humble myself and take care of myself too, I lost only more of myself and disappointed the ones that meant the most. Why, because I was afraid of being alone and heartbroken. I couldn't see that I couldn't love someone for the both of us. It wasn't enough to keep him safe and happy, if I wasn't too. In the end, I was alone. But in the loneliness I found my self, hope, discovered faith, and alittle peace that brought me the love and happiness in my life that I have today. Please people don't sell ur self short or settle for less than u deserve. We have to take a chance in life to get what it is we are really meant to have. It's unlimited to what we can have in and for ourselves if we try. It is my biggest fear in my life to take a risk but I then remember, I will only be empty and lonely without it. Love yourself and respect yourself that is reward in itself!!! What u do and where u take ur life, good or bad, is your control, it is ur birth right. If u let someone else take the wheel, u only have urself to blame. I learned, and it was a hard lesson, but I'll be damn if anyone ever takes my wheel again. I am the sole driver of my life. And I am full speed ahead. But what I express here today are only facts the way I know it. You know what they say " Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. God Bless!!!
