Love sat down beside me
Love sat down beside me
I did not know what to do
It became a puzzle
To be solved.
How do you recognize the Beloved
When he sits down beside you
When she looks at you
Do you know
Each body thinks it knows
The layers all think they know
But I did not know
It was a surprise.
Intimate conversation is always a surprise
Talking to yourself
Listening to yourself reply
Ears hearing
Eyes softening
Heart listening.
Needing to be quiet and allow
The voice of Love to speak.
Spiraling between desire need and
Calm acceptance
Eager struggle and
Serene observation
Touching Love
Holding hands with yourself
Your other yourself.
The Beloved wants to be known
As itself, as it knows itself
And creates a delicious requirement of morality and fantasy
And tricks the Lover into revelation
Exquisite revelation
And then retreats to see
What will happen
How will this develop.
So today I feel like breaking rules
Tomorrow, well who knows
When the Beloved comes to visit
And decides to stay
Confusion and disarray are nearby
Waiting.
The body responds
The mind responds
The emotions respond
The subtle realms respond
And each is different.
The beautiful friend
Is changed into more.
Hiding within, held fast and close and perfect
The Ideal, the perfect vision, the hope knowingly unfulfilled.
Looking out of the window of self
At a vista of befuddled wonder
Tingling with warm understanding
Muted with a very real fear of caused distress and fumbled beginnings
All intermixed with a petition to the Beloved for some simple sign of
Reply.
Perhaps there is an allness but the humanity within me is simply confused
Glad but confused.
So I wonder just how I can possibly figure out,
If figuring is even real,
How can I possibly figure out the best course to navigate
When all courses previously explored
Are not germane to
Now.
Now is unique
In my experience of living
Now is unique.
To me.
I wonder if one should describe exploding galaxies
Or sun drenched meadows full of promise
Or beautific visions of Love personified
Or grace manifest
All seem pale in the face of serene Loving
Tranquil affection
calm
vivid
focused
ease
Perhaps the breakthrough is in belief
And in hope
For more
Love.