Why is it that nothing lasts, you think everything is perfect. You found that person that makes you smile, gives you the chiles from touching you. It feels so right and that it is going to last forever. And then all of a sudden you start to feel it all slipping through your fingers and you try so hard to hold on to it, but it feels like no matter what you do it will all fade away......
Greg---
We have been through so much, every since that day you came to meet me at the courthouse in Framingham. That was one of the best days of my life, You treated me like a queen. You said it was because you saw how Carlos treated me, and you said I desevred way better than that. I remember the first time you kissed ( like it yeserday instead of it being 2 years ago ) me in the woods after we got high. The first time we ever went to the hotel on rt 9, it was magical. The way you kissed me, the way you touch, and a few other things that you did to me. I use to look forwood to going to the hotel every week, the weeks would go by so slow because I was waiting for the day that we would go to the hotel.
That was always the highlight of my week, not getting fucked up with Lisa but being with you You once said that the best time of your life was when you were poor and sleeping in the tent with me instead of times when you were doing good and had money, it was also the best time of my life....
Listen, I know I have hurt you but I told you once I started the clinic I was going to change and never do anything that would hurt you ever again. I know I said that when I went to jail and I broke that promise to you. I wish I could take it all back and we could start all over again, I wish you know how much I LOVE YOU. I love you with all of my heart, I don't want for us to just be drug buddies. I think of us as way more then that, you are my heart and soul. You use to tell me you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me. Also in the letters you wrote to me while I was in jail there was so much love in them what happened to all of that love, did it die or fade away over time because of everthing that happened. I do not want to be without you? Ijust want things to be like they were before but better. I fucking love you so dam much....
Well I just wanted you to know my feels and thoughts and that I will love you always and forever no matter what happens, we have been through so much together in the last two years.
Love always,
Christina
11/12/2007 10:44a
11/12/2007 1:11p
