i'm really not sure why i post shit on this blog any more--some one once commented 'why don't your friends comment on your blogs'--hell i got 5000+ friends here and how many views 12--i try do do so much better with my friends' blog
but --i don't know if anyone gives a hoot--but sometimes it's emotionallly pleasant to just do some house cleaning on now silly but once important sites well like this one.--i pretty much purged all they let me keep in my private message box--just reminds me of the sadness of how quick people come and then are gone from one's life--and that's sad and gives me a heck of a complex.
and the family list--damn---the ones named 'midnight' 'buttons' and 'bekah' are there cause their named after my puppies and daughter--if there was a 'heidi' she'd be there too
the other few are very special ladies who know of all my 'problems' yet still talk to me and send me love--maybe cause they look beyond the fact that i'm not perfect--and knew me before i went public with my bi=polarism-and thought it would be better--maybe mutual not to flee--or something like that. it's just so many , either subtly or less subtly took their leave of me--and that's sad--i so must stop caring so much--but --that's me--sorry
