well they still have not turned off my internet..when they will i do not know but it will take some days before it is back on and i am not looking forward to not having net access. anyway my son is coming home on july 27th...him, my daughter-n-law and two grandbabies will be home for about 16 days. it has been a year and a half since i last saw my boy and being away from him has been the hardest thing ever. I am soooo excited to see my son and family but i am also having some anxiety about it. my daughter-n-law had wrote some letters to me about some things and i dont know how i feel about it still. and i am having doubts and insecurities about them coming home to what they left. all things change and i know my son has went through the last year becomming a man..i just dont want him to be embarrassed of me. i dont have alot of money and material things are not really that important to me. but i know at 20 years old they are important to him. i just hope the man that is coming home is still my son as he was and not a stranger...does that make sense...lol.