My work is done, 10 hours shift
The house cleaned with fanatical drift
The clothes are washing, shopping done
All windows blinking in the sun
Sitting a moment to unwind
Desolation creeps up from behind
Nothing to keep your mind from wandering
No chores left to distract your pondering
It's scary to relax, to touch the pain
It's better to keep numbing my brain
I am terrified of what I'll find
lurking in the corners of my mind
Conversations popping up in my head
Images of you and me in bed
And again I'm thrown back into dark
The void overwhelming and painfully stark
My heart swells up, through my eyes released
Each thought, each tear, my pain increased
Drowning in desperation, undiluted sorrow
I'm terrified of the future, even tomorrow
Then I fight the tears, the pain in my heart
I must stop myself from falling apart
But baby, I miss you, I miss you so
This pain will remain
That much I know
©dutch2lips
August 20th, 2006
