Freak's blog: "Freak Thoughts"

I swear people are trying to drive me insane.  I'm one of those people who is fine with being single until I find someone really worth dating.  Now there's always been this one guy I've been into for a while now.  We've never got to meet cause something always happens to screw it up.  Although I am good friends with his cousin and we hang out sometimes.  And now he works so much it's impossible to try anything even though we both like each other.

Well a couple months ago I was hanging out with some friends and the one chick I know, her boyfriend at the time was like I wish I had met you before I started dating her.  WTF?!  Since then they have broke up.  He's like hardcore into me.  To the point at times I want to run the other way because it's like slow the hell down.  I hardly know you.  You hardly know me.  Back off for now, give it time or else you're going to ruin things already.  I've tried to explain how I am to him.  How I don't just jump into things.  I've met too many people who I thought were one way and then poof I was wrong.  And I mean that even about FRIENDS.  I had a best friend who down the road we realized was backstabbing a lot of us.  So I like people to truly prove I can trust them.  That doesn't just happen in like 2 months time. 

But now he was trying to say I'm being elusive and avoiding him.  All of this because I didn't go to the bar last night with him and a mutual friend.  Um sorry if my headache was killing me.  He was like you always hang out with this mutual friend when I can't and never seem to hang out when I can.  Um wtf are you smoking???  I've hung out with our mutual friend ONCE when he couldn't come out.  Mind you though I've known Tim (the mutual friend) for YEARS.  So excuse me if I want to hang out with my one best friend without having to worry that some guy who likes me isn't getting enough of my attention or whatever.  It's driving me nuts.  I hate people who get too pushy.  He doesn't get it.  He's like you won't let me get to know you.  Since when?  I talk to you, I hang out with you.  What more do you want? 

Then just last week I met this other guy.  Seems nice, don't know him a lot but I'd like to get to know him more.  lol  Although I hate to tell guy #2 and guy #3 but if the first guy was ready and able to date...they would be out of luck.  I just hate it.  It's like for so much time there was like no possibilities really for dating and now there's 2 and 1/2 lol.