Overwhelmed
Why am I like this
Why do I have to be this way
I am so tired of fighting
Of screaming at the top
Of my lungs
Until my throat
Gives way to pain
Blood swells up
At the back of my mouth
As I cry and sob
And weep
And the tears just run
There is no control
My lips quiver
As my whole body just shakes
And I can’t stop it
I want to die
I just want it all to end
To go away
I can’t see from the tears
And the swelling in my eyes
And it rips me apart inside
And I can still hear myself
Screaming even though
It stopped
And there is still
That taste of blood
So strong and sharp
It penetrates my nose
I hate this
I hate me
I don’t want to be like this
Why can’t I be normal
And I still want to die
And to make it worse
I’ve tried to do it myself
To myself
And I couldn’t even do that right
And my nose runs as fast as my tears
Thin and clear tears
Too many for just my eyes
I am so tired of it
And I just don’t fucking care
And I just want everyone to leave me alone
I want to hide because
I want to die
And I’ve fucking tried
I fucking tried
I’m so pathetic
Please just let me die
Please just kill me
I can’t stand this any more
I can’t bear it
I can’t
I just fucking can’t
I'm so fucking tired
Of fighting with myself
