Walking for hours down the lonely streatch of beach looking and pondering the meaning of life. MY LIFE.
He came to me one day, walking out of the darkness like a specter, whe he talked I didnt understand, he said many things to me that sounded like gibberish, ramblings of a man that has been out for way to long, he came, and after talking to him for hours I began to realize somethings, we all carry our burdens, some we have carried for many years, some for only a short while, we tell everybody you just dont understand, I told him that, he didnt understand what I have been through, but he didnt have to understand, he didnt even need to know the details, he told me that the burdens we all carry, are ours, and nobody else's and only we can put those demons to rest.
We continued to talk for hours, me gaining more and more insight, him never really saying anything of importance, except I am here for you, I always have been, now it is your turn, to lay your burdens down or carry them, it is your decision.
after I had learned the lessons the he needed to teach me, some painfully obvious, some subtle but still significant, he walked away back into the darkness from which he came from. I realized I am better off for him to come and go and leave such an impact.
I have demons, I carry them daily, my burdens that nobody knows of, that nobody see's, those little holes in my life that grow together and get bigger and bigger the more I dwell on them, but I have realized that if I am to grow it is time for me to put those demons behind me.
I wont say that they will be gone in the next few minutes, hours or days, but as my life progresses, they will leave me, as I strive for the better things and quit living in the past, see my demons, my burdens can only bother me if I let them, I have the choice to keep them or lay them down.
Yes for today my demons still haunt me, but not as bad as they normally do, today I feel at peace and at ease for the first time in a long time, today I can carry on with my life, I can begin anew.
I cant speak for tomorrow tho, because nobody knows what tomorrow holds, and I know that the past held many things, some horrifing to me, some that completed me but those days are gone and I can only seek that happiness in today.
I know your demons haunt you, your fears hold you back, you hide...
We all hide from one thing or another but our willingness to push forward, and our determination to suceede, keeps us going, for today this moment in time I am able to lay my burndens down, I am able to feel at ease and at peace.
Can You?
