Semper Fidelis's blog: "ENVY"

  Emotionless

Shattered pieces of my heart

Lay on the floor

I just stand there crying

Waiting for happiness

I get a needle and thread

Hoping to put myself back together

I look for love in all the wrong places

My heart getting shattered more and more

Slowly over time

My heart turns to dust

My emotions are no more

Just a cold stare

Anger is the only emotion I have

The days go by and it gets worse

Self mutilation and alcohol

Are my best friends

My hands bruised and scabbed

My anger takes hold

It wont let go

One by one my emotions return

Depression, rage, grief

Happiness never comes back

My facade slowly sinking

My true self showing

My friends leave me

I am cold hearted and numb

I run far away

Hoping that nobody finds me

I trip and fall over my stupidity

I lay in the open field

Choking on my tears

I scream until my throat is raw and bleeding

I punch the earth knowing it won't hit back

Suddenly I stop

Like a zombie I walk home

I pour myself a drink and take a sip

It burns my bleeding throat

I go upstairs to my room and lay in bed

I close my eyes never to wake again