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What are you waiting for?
I hear things around me when I'm alone
I see the shadows moveing around and creeping so slow
Hear footsteps , turn around and see nothing
Looking into a mirror , can this really be me?
Filled with a rage and so much hate
I've done things I know I shouldn't have
I played around with things you wouldn't have
Imagine a horror movie playing inside your mind
Not knowing if its real or not
I see the faces and feel the urge
My mind feels trapped in a prison
Should my body be in one too?
You say "It's just in your head"
You're lucky its not in yours
I've pictured myself standing over you sleeping, i'm holding a knife
How easy it would be to end your life
Slit your thoat or stab at your face
Either way blood will be all over the place
The voices I hear
Are they really my own or something else?
The little voice in your head is supposed to tell you the right thing to do
So why does mine tell me to kill?
I feel like a bomb ready to fire
I don't know when time will expire
With all these things going on
Do you still want to know what's wrong?
been a year now
my mind's still the same somehow
pickin through the mess
this constant stress
it's been 3 years
thought of her smile still brings tears
i was haveing a blast
but thats in the past
it happened so fast
life's movie is infront of me but im not in the cast
filled with thoughts of certainty
but when will it be reality
every knife i see
every gun i see
the thought always the same
i failed at life's game
The pain in my heart
It's ripping me apart
Trieng to fill the emptyness day by day
Will this feeling ever go away?
I'm haunted by a smile
Been this way for a while
Used to love everything
Now I can't stand anything
I can't escape my mind
What am I trieng to find?
Is this feeling a lie
All I want to do is die
How can I have hope
When the answers to my prayer is nope
You shut my heart's door
And left me with nothing to live for
Everything reminds me of a better time and place
What I would do to see your face
I'm in a cave with no light
It's darker then night
I feel so dumb
I've become so numb
I made a vow
We were supposed to be married by now
I'm single
And honestly not ready to mingle
I'm falling down a bottomless pit
I'm tired of feeling like shit
This isn't the real me
How can this be?
I look in the mirror
Wish my future could be clearer
With so much to fear
Why am I still here?
My memories just torture me
I wanna set my mind free
I wish I could quit
And just forget
The pain in my heart
Keeps ripping me apart
The thoughts in my head
Tell me to make you dead
The hate inside of me
Keeps me thinking
Laying in my bed at night
The things going on filled with fright
Strangers just walking by
How many ways can they die
My hands , a gun or knife
All tools to end a life
Filled with so much hate
This can't just be heart break
The years trieng to bury it
Now I have to live with it
All this pain
Trapt inside my brain
The way I walk , talk and dress
Expressions of my mind's mess
You make fun of me
I want to make my fantasy a reality
It starts with a life
Introduce a knife
Stabbing at your head
Now you're dead
I'm the one laughing now
Your friends are crieng now
You wanna make fun
Talk to this gun
I pull the trigger
Just one finger
How many people can I kill
How much blood can I spill
I'm filled with rage
Express it page after page
You wonder what's wrong with me
Try spending one day as me
Fingers pointing
Faces stareing
I feel frustrated
Always aggravated
I want to hide
Away from my mind
Sitting by a tree
Dreaming of a killing spree
Blame music,movies or haveing cable
Maybe i'm just mentally unstable
I try to release
I want some peace
See these tears
You don't know my fears
Things that haunt me at night
They'd make you run in fright
This is my mind
You still want to see inside?
