You want me to change my thinking
My patience for your stupidity is shrinking
Still pictures of your dead corpse apear while im blinking
Keep blameing it on my smokeing and drinking
The only time I can feel at peace
The rage and depression start to decrease
Then I deal with an idiot that makes it increase
I just want to release
My heart starts racein
My mind is on a different station
You say its a thought that leads to this feeling
I wanna throw you though the ceiling
I get feelings of rage and i don't know why
I get feelings of depression and I start to cry
I'm feeling worse then before
The same routine it's just a bore
How many different medications will I explore
I'm fighting an internal war
How long before I end up on the floor
Or six feet under
No wonder
I feel like my heart and mind is torn asunder
Wanna know why I can't remember what you said?
I had a different convo going on in my head
You tried to judge me while my file went unread
I told you im not normal
Do I have to write a letter and make it formal?
I guess my brain is paranormal
