I dont know where I stand in life,
I Dont know who I am;
My haunting past is a part of me,
That so Long ago took its stand;
I want to know My destiny,
I want to know the truth,
But lately it has been Difficult,
No light seems to shine through;
The darkness set upon me,
Is binding me like chains,
Invisible to the Naked eye,
But they get tighter by the day;
They pull me closer to depression,
The light keeps traveling further away,
These chains are pulling me under,
God, Save me!
I silently pray;
I'm pushed down to my knees,
As my body becomes weak,
I'm left here all alone,
Drowning in my Misery;
The tears fall from my eyes,
as I silently cry,
The pain is so emmense,
Sometimes I just want to die;
I wipe away my tears,
As I struggle to break free,
Break free from these Wretched chains,
that are constantly binding me;
I scream out to the silence,
"This is not the life for me,
God save me from this life of hell,
This is not my destiny;
But the Silence becomes stronger,
As I once again begin to weep,
Tears streaming down my face,
Is this the end of me?
I feel the chains getting tighter,
As I get up off my knees,
I will not live this life,
Even if I die Breaking free;
I look into a mirror,
That somehow just appeared,
the Sorrow in my eyes,
Now transformed to anger and fear...
I dont know where I am in life,
and I dont know what to think,
My life is constantly changing,
Nothing makes sense to me;
One day i can be smiling,
For some reason God only knows,
The next day I am Crying,
telling myself I must let go;
This on and off Depression,
is beating me with ease,
I cant force myself to Smile no more,
the pain is killing me;
I try to tell myself,
It is all just a dream,
Tomorrow ill wake up,
and Ill go back to being me;
But it never truly happens,
I wake up and its all the same,
Another worthless day in my life,
full of false happiness and pain
Im dying inside because of you,
I silently cry as my heart breaks in two;
I’m failing at life,
No one can make me smile,
No one besides you,
Knows how to make my life worthwhile;
Im suffocating from this silence,
That we now share,
A week ago it was perfect,
Now you do not seem to care;
No matter what I do,
And no matter what I say,
I cannot get you to speak to me,
The silence grows stronger by the day;
I don’t know what I have done,
I don’t know what I should do,
Should I stay here and wait?
As my heart slowly breaks in two?
Should I walk away forever?
Should I lock away my heart?
Should I stand here waiting,
As you completely tare me apart;
I do not know the answer,
Because no matter how hard I try,
I cannot get myself to say it,
I cannot tell you Goodbye;
I cannot walk away forever,
Because I know that I’ll come back,
I cannot wait here however,
Because my heart is under attack;
I cannot decide on what to do,
Because no matter what I still need you,
No matter what you do to me,
No matter what you’ve done,
I cannot walk away from you,
You’re the one I love;
I know that you don’t care,
Its obvious you see,
If you truly cared,
You would talk to me;
You wouldn’t stand in silence,
Watching me as I fall,
You wouldn’t keep things from me,
You use to be my all;
You used to be the one,
Id come to when I was sad,
You use to be the one,
That could cheer me up when I was mad;
You used to be the one,
That could instantly make me smile,
Just saying hello,
Would make my life worthwhile;
But now things have changed,
And I don’t know what to do,
You used to be my everything,
You don’t care,
But I still love you.
The tears fall from my face,
As I finally break into tears,
My life flashes before my eyes,
Memories of the past 4 years;
My heart breaks in half,
The pain is so immense,
Id rather die right now,
Then have to continue to live;
My eyes search the room,
Searching for the unknown,
My eyes focus on you,
I cannot let you go;
My heart shatters slowly,
And my tears pour from my eyes,
The pain ive bottled for oh so long,
Finally breaking free from its disguise;
My life feels like a tunnel,
With no light at the end,
The days keep getting harder,
Its getting harder for me to live;
My arms reach out towards you,
But you seem so far away,
I cannot get to you in time,
You disappear as you walk away;
My arms fall to my sides,
As I crumble to the ground,
Breaking into sobs,
Sobs without a sound;
I lay there all alone,
Crying my heart out,
Wishing you would come back to me,
Wishing you were here somehow;
I feel like I am dying,
Now that you are gone,
I cannot stop the crying,
I cannot keep myself strong;
I cannot tell myself,
I don’t need you in my life,
I cannot tell myself that,
Because I know that’d be a lie;
I cannot breathe without you,
You make my heart skip its beat,
I cannot sleep without you,
I need you next to me;
I cannot smile without you,
You put the sparkle in my eyes,
I cannot laugh without you,
You’re what kept me alive;
You’re the reason I was happy,
You’re the reason I always smiled,
You’re the reason for my laughter,
You’re the reason my life was worth-while;
You don’t see how much im dying,
Deep down inside my soul,
When you left,
You took a part of me,
A Part of me I thought id never let go;
You took a shard of my heart,
As it broke free from its hold,
Cutting me inside,
As I finally let you go;
My tears are like razors,
Their cutting me with ease,
My heart is dark and cold,
Now that you’ve left me..