Have you ever just loved someone so much you feel as if you'd give anything to make them happy? Even if that meant you had to tear yourself apart? Right now thats how Im feeling. I would do anything to make him happy and I thought he knew that. I've even considered moving out of where I am now cuz he doesnt like the living arrangements Im in. And right now I dont have to worry about anything by my daughters needs and my phone bill. If I move out Im once again responcible for everything which I dont have a problem with but I know with my job it would be really hard and would put a lot of stress on me. But if it meant him and I could be happy I would do it. Hell Ive even agreed to put up with things I wouldnt deal with from most people. I still havent figured out how he did it but he has totally stolen my heart. And that part that makes it even harder is hes also stolen my daughters. She just adores him. Every time hes around she goes straight to him, once she realizes who he is, and then she wants him over me. I dont want to see her get crushed over this. Its bad enough I know if I was ever to lose him it would totally crush me but I dont think I could handle knowing Im the reason for my lil girl to have a broken heart already. Hes even had me looking at a future with him...and thats really hard to do after the shit I went through with my daughters father. I just dont know what to think. Its just one of those times where I would do anything to make him happy but he just needs to tell me what it is that I need to do. Ive even brought him home and let him meet the family...first time Ive done that since my daughters father almost three years ago. I feel like Im stuck. Its not that I couldnt find anyone else cuz I know I could its just that I really dont want anyone else.
