Cervical Cancer
Fear,
Does it have a name?
Does it have a face?
Can you tell it to go away?
Will it disappear when you close your eyes?
Fear,
Is coming to me in a white coat
Comes to poke and prod
Comes with constant pain
Comes to test, only more tests
Despair,
Words spoken within a fog
Unheard within fears dream
Gripped with fear all is unseen
Tears stream with a heat
Despair,
Hope fades with more tears
Fear is ever present
Questions go unanswered
Worry begets all
Tears,
Will it ever answer me?
The white coat mocks me
Pain wracks the body
The checks turn red yet again
Tears,
Pain won't go away with a pill
Tests still hold no answers
Fear & despair cycle all over again
Denial,
It can't be true
The test has said it yet
No acceptance will be said
The tears become a common friend
Silence,
White coat answer me
More tests are demanded
Live with the pain I am told
Waiting on borrowed time I behold
Silence,
Lips move as something is read
Questions still abound in this head
The white coat comes to poke again
Pain, will it ever end?
Cancer,
Constant watching and waiting
Constant testing with no more waiting
The diagnosis is granted
The answers don't ease ones fears
Cervical Cancer,
White coat, yes you doctor
Another answer is all I plead
Tell me is it true
Tell me my fate, my doom
What shall I do…