so you say im just a friend and thats all ill be...ill find the one that will be right for me...together well be happy, but not as friends but lovers...
every time i try harder it doesn't do any good...they just throw me out like day old food...that feeling of aloneness tears my heart..which some people will never know...
the truth is im alone....single...and unhappy...and theres not much people can say or do to change that...but bring me down more...when it comes down to it...there is no thing in this world called friends..
just people acting to give a shit and speak words they do not back up...so therefore people are not worth my time in explaining my life...its pointless to describe someone the things ive been through when they themselves do not have my trust
friends are not important to me..family is what matters...they are the only ones that have a chance in guidance in life...since they seem to know me more than anyone yet they have no inclination of the things that go on in my life everyday
so who do i trust? no one...myself and my abilities are the only things that will ever have any power over my life
why does society hate me so? im just a simple person trying to live my life, but can't due to the irritation of me being so nice as to be all that a woman wants, yet in fact a woman in todays society does not want this...they are so used to having a bunch of ill mannered boys that they know nothing of what a man should be or act...this is truely a handicap of my abilities and to have a relationship of anykind of the simplest form i can't express my feelings i have when i hear those words replaying in my mind, you're everything that i want and more...yet somehow they still seem to reject me and all i stand for...either not a big enough asshole, or just a friend, its a lose lose situtaion at either demand...i wish i could be the asshole they want, yet i know deep down it would be too hard to do without a reason to be so...and even if that reason was present i probably wouldn't be talking to them anyways..
the words no one speaks of, cling to you like a leech sucking the last bit of live from any living thing, the deeper it seems to get the more it seems to hurt, your breaths grow short as if the life you live is wrong in some sort, the one's you love is far from your state of mind, whether it be physically or mentally, they all seem to have a piece, of the life you live, when you seem so alone and the world is dark, those pieces become the fragments of light and shine you in the right direction, but when the power is cut off and all seems hopeless it is the light inside of you that will have to spark the flame and when there is no spark just remember those that have loved you and those words of wisdom they have gave you...the words no one hears but yet they know all to be true..
i'm looking for a girl, one that is true, i'm looking for a friend, that know's what a good time is, i'm looking for a person, who knows what's best, i'm looking for someone, that doesn't get into stupid bullshit, i'm looking for caution, that thinks before they act, i'm looking for careless, that doesn't care what people think, i'm looking for sense, that every action has a reaction, i'm looking for unique, that i can find in no other, i'm looking for ears, that will listen all night, i'm looking for eyes, that seem to go forever when i look in them, i'm looking for a smile, that makes the whole world halt, i'm looking for stubborn, who can put up with me, i'm looking for understanding, that can read me like a book, i'm looking for someone, that is the best of them all, no matter what time of day or how it was that will always make my day shine with her soft voice and golden smile
the more time i spend with you the more time it makes me wonder why i do the things i do, for you, with you, every second that i count, wishing someday that you would realize finally that you were being so stupid, everything that i've been through in my whole life has told me to stay away from your type, but ever since we started hanging out all night, you are the very reason god gave us sight, you brighten my day with your golden smile......its getting around that time its getting kind of close so im gonna be the one you can count on the most its getting real bored almost like life i feel that i got to make a sacrifice ill try all i can no matter what the weather all i really want is a real lover one who can be true and respect my shit then my mouth will be all over that clit my eyes are heavy, my heart grows weak, my inentions are good, my soul i seek.....cuz he was haulin ass, going a bit too fast, before you know it he was gone in a flash, just a memory of his parents past, cuz you dont know when its time for you to go, just live life like its your last laugh...
