I've sat here few times wondering how things would be if maybe I wouldn't have chosen the path that I Have. Wondering where I would be, what I would be doing, who I would be with, and how I managed to get there.
Question is, I would probably be wondering the same questions, no matter which path in life I decided to take. Why? Because life is uncertain. You can't chose how things are going to turn out, just live life everyday as if it were your last.
Being married is great. Having that special someone in your life that you know will love you unconditionally and not have to worry about them going out sleeping with random guys is the best. I couldn't be more happier with choosing Jess as my wife. Yes, I've sat here from time to time, thinking back, to previous gf's, and how I've been treated by them, and been cheated on by them, and thanking them... yes, thanking them for waking me up, and letting me walk away, down the road to find Jess.
I'm tired of those people, who act like Marriage is nothing but a disease. They avoid it at all costs. its nerve racking really. Those people who are married, and talk bad about being married get on my nerves too. If you don't see yourself with someone for the rest of your life, then don't get married.. plain and simple. If your in a bad marriage, get the hell out then, don't sit around and complain about it. JUST DONT CHEAT!. Because it will catch up with you.
Its great being a father and a Husband. I wake up every day, Thanking god for bringing me two of the most beautiful women in the world. Emmalee is my pride and joy. Every time I look at her, I see more and more of me everyday. And that feeling you get deep down inside, when you see her sleeping, and she peeks open her eyes and sees you and can't help but smile as she's drifting back to sleep, is the very best feeling in the world. You can't help but get that feeling, every time your baby girl sees you and immediately smiles.
more of my random ramblings later....
