So, Amanda and I have almost made it 3 months, which is a real accomplishment for me considering that I travel for work and I'm only home Friday night through Monday morning. I only see her once a week, if I'm lucky. She only lives about 30 minutes from me, but I'm so tired on the weekends that I consider myself lucky that I have the energy to spend a day with her. She's worth it, I love spending time with her but things have been a little shaky lately.
First, I'm not the most talkative on the phone--especially after a long day of work. I might tell you about a mishap at work or something random at work but beyond that, I'm not going to bore you (or anyone else) with the details. Whenever Amanda and I talk on the phone, she does most of the talking. I'm not complaining about that, I'm just stating the truth with that.
I don't typically have a lot to talk about with her. We don't share a lot in common musically (except that she wants me to play guitar for her) so I can't really talk about the cool Blackmore's Night CD I found at Best Buy and I could really care less about the new T-Pain CD.
The more I think about it, it saddens me that we don't have a lot to talk about on the phone. But, when we're together everything is great. I can't get enough of her, we're always holding each other's hands or hugging. She's great, I haven't been so happy in a long time. But then, I think about how she acts when we're not together. She'll get upset and say stuff like she 'doesn't feel like she has a boyfriend sometimes' and other things along those lines. The next morning she apologizes and everything is supposedly great again. Until she says something of that nature again.
I don't know what to do anymore. I love her, I care about her but how do I keep it all together? :-
