B a B i E V's blog: "ABOUT ME"

    DONT KNOW, AS U KNOW IM FEEING SAD THATS WHEN I WRITE THE BEST.  iVE BEEN GOING THROUGH ALOTA SHIT LATELY, GOT A PMOTION AT WORK, SO IM WORKING MY ASS OFF FOR PENNIES.  F YOUV READ ALL MY OTHER BLOGS, ULL KNOW A LIL BOUT ME. ( 4 THOSE WHO DONT, REAL QUICK. .  I WAS LIVING IN A HOMELESS SHLTER ATTHE AGE OF 13 14 I 4 GET. . . I HAVE 2 KIDS 2 TWO DEADBEAT DADDIES ONE WHO EAT THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME, HIS DAUGHTER AS DEAD 3 MINUTES, 1 POUND AND TNY AS FUCK SHE WAS 3 MONTHS RE MATURE. YES I HAVE A PFA.  DNT WANT HIM INH ER LIFE.  MEN HAVE USED ABUSD MENTALLY FINACALLY PHYSICLLY EVERTHING!!! FUCKING EVETYTHING!!!  I LOVE MY KIDS, THEY ARE THE MST IMPORTANT THING 2 ME... I LIVE MY KIDS (LITERALLY) WITHOUT THE, I AM NO1!!  HAVE A 13, AND A 5 YR OLD. MY 13 YR OL (BOTH GIRLS) IS OFF THE HOOK RIGHT NOW, SHES DOING EVERYTHING I DID AT 13, THAT SCARESME. IT REALLY SCARES ME.. I WANT MY BABY BACK. WHERE DID SHE GO. . .  IM SAD.   I LOOK AT HER AND I SEE ME.. THE FUCKED UP THING IS I KNOW SHES RUINING HER LIFE... LOOK AT ME I CANT TRUST NO1 I ANALYZE EVRTHING AND ANYTHING SOMEONE SAYS TOME.  I ALWAYS THINK THE WORST.  I NEVER AVE A HAPPY THOUGHT IT SEEM ANY HAPPY THOUGHT, I MAKE IT IN2 A NEGATIVE BY RIING IT 2 SHREDS IF GET IT?? I THINK SUM1 WANTS SUMTHING FOR EVERYTHIN. I HAVE FAILED RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE RIGHT MEN BECAUSE I PUSH THEN AWAY.  MY SELF ESTEEM SUCKS!!  IT REALLY SUKS!! TONS OF FLAWS!!  I HATE WHAT I SEE.  I COULD TELL YOU A THOUSAND FLAWS, IM DEMANDING, IM EXTREELY APPRICIATIVE, IM EXTREMELY LOVING, I LOVE TO CUDDLE AN I LOVE TO LOVE!!!! I HATE LIERS, I HATE TO B LIED 2. I CANT STRESS THAT ANY MORE ID B BY THE SIDE OF MY MAN IF HE TOLD ME THE TRUT!! I DEMAND THE TRUTH BUT VERY RARELY GET IT!! I HATE LIERS. BUT IM MEAN, I  TAKE MY SADNESS  AND IT COMES OUT SARCASTICALLY ONLY 2 THE ONES THAT ARE CLOSEST 2 ME, I PUSH PPL AWAY. I NEVER GO OUT, IWORK AND IM A MOTHER!! 420 ALL DAY!! IT MAKES ME SANE ( FUCK U IF YA JUDGE) IM A GREAT MOTHER, DO  SEE  SAD FACES ON MY KIDS?  I STRUGGLE WIT DEPRESSION PROBALLY MORE THAN U THINK...   DOES ANY OF THIS MAKE SENSE 2 ANY1?  CUZ I FEEL ALONE LIKE NOONE ELSE WORRIES OR CARES AS MUCH AS I DO, NOT IN A BAD WA MINES IS JUST SO OVERPOWERING IT MAKES ME INTO A PANIKY, NUTCASE!!!    LOL. NO MATER HOW GOOD SUM1 IS FOR ME I RUN WHY?? IM TIRED OF RUNNING, MY FRIEND ON HERE TOLD ME I FORGOT HOW TO B HAPPY, AND HES RIGHT!!  I DID.. I DONT KNOW HOW TO B FUCKING HAPPY AYMORE.. I WORRY ABOUT THINGS CONSTANTLY..WHEN MY MIND RACES, DAMN IT RACES...  I WORRY ABOUT MY KIDS  THE MOST.. FINANCIAL SECOND, THIRD FOURTH AND FIFTH!!!!!!!  JUST WANT TO HAVE A GOOD LIFE, GOOD KIDS, AND I WANA B HAPPY! THATS IT HOW, WHEN YOUVE BEE NHURT YOUR WHOLE LIFE DO U LEARN HO TO B HAPPY AGAIN????  AM I A LOST SOUL... HAVE I BEEN LOST IN THE IND?? DOES ANT1 NOTIC ME? MY MIND MY HEART?? I WONDER I HONESTLY WONDER ARE THEY OUT THERE?? IM AN AMAZING PERSON, ID GIVE YOU THE SHIRT OFF MY BACK.. I DONT THROW FOOD AWAY I GVE IT AWAY!! IM LAID BCK AND I GO WITH THE FLOW.. I FUNNY AND IMSOLOVING WHEN U GOT MY HEART, U GOT A BONNIE, LOOKING FOR HER CLYDE (YA DIG??)  BUT IT GETTIN IT THATS THE STRUGGLE!! SHIT I TEXT CUZ I DNT LIKE THE PHONE!!   (LOL)

BABIEV

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