Maj's blog: "life"

with so much going on now im so not sure what to do i really feel like a zombie like i cant feel anymore before all this i was happy really really happy , now i just so dont feel like as up to beat im sleeping lots an have almost next to none emotion!!! i remember growng u i was really unhappy all my friends kept passing away an now once again it just never ends outta all the friends ive had growing up i have like a hand full left... an none of us live anywhere near each other..its pretty sad my mom has a scrap book going for me since i was 12 of all the friends that i have lost..it really really dampers a person... ive had no emotion with this my gpa i push that away so i didnt have to deal with it!! an now scott an cory like what the shit is going on here already, talked to my bestfriend last night jo an me an her have agreed we are taking off we are flying to our island an never returning untill this horrible dream comes to an end once an for all.... neither one of us believes this shit..like how an why,an why is it always the best ones too huh... how bout god leaving some of the amazing people here instead of taken em all the @#$%^&..... i know at some point it will all pass but not being able to say goodbye..... i feel empty an cold like there is nothing going to change this all... the dark emptyness is surey taking over i dont know what to say just needed to type some i think im sorry i guess this is life an well we have to deal or we dont survive!!!!!