Lol, it's crazy how I can't really explain how much I love him. He is just so wonderful. He makes me feel so unique, so special. The way he listens to everything I have to say...the way I can go to him and just cry because I'm so frustrated here. He is just so fucking cute, lol. I sit here and think of him when I can't see him. Today he came over but had to leave early because of my stupid stepdad. It was great seeing him today. When he holds me it just makes all the stupid things go away. Lol, I cried when he left. But...I have his Axe spray now so I doused my stewie blanket with it so I can sleep at night. I miss him so much. I can't stand being away from him. I was so pissed that he had to leave that I had one of my insane thoughts again, lol, I almost said "fuck it, I'm leaving and I'll be back tomorrow". I wanted to go home with him, so bad. I swear I almost did. I love him so so so much.
