What to say.........IDK where to start. I just feel like I ma sitting on the sidelines in everyone I care about's lives. I get told over and over I want you in my life...I need you in my life...idk what i would do with out you in my life. Sounds great right. Who doesnt love to hear things like that. Dont get me wrong it makes me feel wonderful, elated, wanted, needed. But then the reality of it hits, when you sit here night after night waiting for them to remember your still here. they tell me they want me in their lives, but fail to mention...when its convenient for them. So what do ya do? Get angry, get pissed , blow up at them? Or sit like an idiot, hoping to catch the scraps of attention and affection they might eventually throw your way? If someoen has an answer or advice please let me know. You will find me in my season seat...on the sideline
