Pathetic.. Is the main fucking word. This family, This fucking family is nothing more then a pathetic bunch of fucking idiots, that most of them should be wiped from the face of the earth. They honestly don't deserve this thing called living. I don't either. But it's pretty damn stupid to go fucking insane over the most moronic bullshit. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of every little goddamn thing. I can not wait til I finally get out of this toxic waste dump.. Everyone thinks they understand what I am going through. But just face it. You don't have ONE percent of an idea of what I am feeling nor what I am going through. You are just assuming and guessing. But you are nothing more then WRONG. You do not know anything about me, But what day of I was born, My name, and the plain fucking fact that I am your flesh and blood. You don't know how I feel, What I wish to do with my life, What I wish to be when I get older, What collages I'm interested in, My interests, My hobbies, What's my taste of music, What's my favorite things to do, Or who's my best friends. And you want to know why you don't know. It's because you won't take FIVE or more minutes out of your oh so busy life, To sit down, and fucking have a decent conversation with your own Flesh and Blood. But then You always have time to get on my case about POINTLESS SHIT. Stuff that I don't do, Stuff that aren't worth arguing about. Then you tell me shit about how I'm not going to amount to anything in life.. What the fuck. How are you suppose to be a GOOD example for my while I'm growing up, When you tell me shit such as that. I already have enough pressure on my back from school. I don't need to be taunted, and fucked with when I get home. Yes. I know, I'm a goddamn failure. And in 15 years. I probably won't amount to anything. But guess what? It's my life. And The whole point of living. Is to live it the way you want to. If I do become a fucking drug addict, That will be my problem, And I'll cope with it during my pace. Not yours. I'll learn from my mistakes focus on my strong points. Don't spend time bitching at me over stupid shit. It's pointless, And you know it. I'm not some goddamn idiot either. And you have no right to call me one.. And what makes it even worst is that, EVERY damn time, I try to explain myself or tell you something of importance. I'm told to shut up. How am I suppose to learn something if you constantly tell me to shut up. Fucking retarded. And I thought I was suppose to enjoy my teen' years. Not hate them.. Three more years... Three fucking more.. Til I get out. I'll make sure that I do.. I can't stay here.. I just can't. These people.. Have no morals of how to raise a child, decently. I swear, I don't even think I'll make it for three more years..Everything that I live for, Everything I thought was real, Is just a hoax.. So I might as well just forget everything I've heard.. Don't try to compare yourself with me. You don't understand. I don't want you to. It's pointless. All I feel right now. Is Hatred. PURE fucking hatred.. This is just a friction of how I am feeling right now.. Matter of fact. I honestly don't know how I am feeling. All I do know. Is that I am angry.. Some of this shit probably won't even make any sense.. But again, It doesn't matter, does it? No.. It doesn't. I am done with this shit...
