14 years is a very long time, coming on longer each day. I have never stopped missing you, and miss you now more then ever. It isn't the physical that I miss, but that connection we shared. Just the simple act of holding you in my arms, you were a part of me, an extension of myself. This hasnt changed in the least, I still feel you, and I doubt that will ever stop. I missed you today, I mean I miss you everyday, but today even more so. It weighs so heavy on me....
I trust in His promise, three times, the path I have been put on, the end within sight but still so far away. There are so many things I need to say to you, so much....
I talk about what happened, and it makes me feel better, strange that it happens that way, after everything that happened, everything I did and everything I didn't do. I was such a mess, and only got worse. Every day back then worse then the day before, the only good thing I had was you. You were the only one who really cared, do you still? Could you?
Not sure how often I will be posting these, though I imagine there will be many. Everyday? The bad days? The good days?
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