Depth of My Heart Desire
I hold my tongue.
I stare the blank screen.
I begin to weep to my heart pain over you.
How do I say words to embrace your heart with warmth towards me?
Should I speak what stirs within my essence for you?
Can I see the truth flickering in your haunting sultry eyes as I tell you all from the depth of my heart and soul?
Will you smile to the news of my love depth for you?
Or will just bait me with sweet lies to gain my one precious gift from me?
Come the setting sun, I look out about life; all I see is darkness and feel your haunting pain pulling apart.
Now I wish I had told you long ago of the love within me for you.
I turn to look back at the blank page.
My hands tremble like my beating heart, my breathing is fast, and my mind is lost within the fog of love for you.
Can I find the sweet words to tell you?
Yes, I can.
With the depth of my heart lurks a desire for you that no man can steal from you.
My heart and soul would walk thousand of miles to die in your place.
I see and feel your pain.
I even weep you tears that you can’t show.
I pace the floors at nights with thoughts of you.
My hands touch my lonely lips of sin wishing your lips would kiss them.
I stare into the mirror naked wishing you were behind me, so I can watch your hands touch my naked flesh as if you own my entire as yours.
I feel things that I know is wrong and against God, but I now know that you are the only man that can awaken my sleeping passion.
Depth of my love is endless as time and space for you.
I know I could kiss your dying lips and offer my life for yours.
How do I speak what I know deep within me?
I pray one day I can speak this word to you, but deep down I know I would be just mindless muse with no words or will to say such things.
My fingers long to touch your face of angel.
My lips want to be brave and bold to explore you in ways I never dream I could ever do to man like you.
Depth of my heart desire wants only you.
How can I turn my back on you and just find another?
I fear the passing time between us.
I long for your words to express you wish for me to come to you.
How I wait endlessly for you to come to see me as the woman, who would do anything to make you life more complete?
My thoughts at times betray me when I try to not to believe in you.
I know you have faults.
I know all the risk in loving you.
I have come to see and know, one day you may never be mine or love me back, but within depth of my heart desire for you.
I have to hold to possibilities one day you will come to me for all the love that can set your heart and soul free like you have done for me.
Teo, I how to find the way or words to tell you, I love you.
I love you with such boundless passion; I know I can love you within the shadows of life.
I know I can always be here for you, even if you never reach out of me.
But my heart and soul knows one day….
One day you will pause to think of me and my words, when you do.
Just turn around Teo.
I will be standing right behind you with my hands reaching out to you.
©2009 Firestar
Would He Care
I would lay my life down for him.
Would he care?
I would lie to God, Devil and anyone else to protect him.
Would he care?
Would he see my love, if I was to walk through hell to save him?
Could he just once turn around to I care more than he realizes?
I would cheat death and life, even law to help him in his time of need.
Would he care enough to reach out to me?
I would take a bullet for him.
I would do anything for his love, but he doesn’t seem to know or see my love.
I would step in front a speeding car, as he runs to another woman waiting arms.
Would he even look back at my dying body to wonder why I did?
Would I be fool to do all this for him?
Why do I want to do this for him?
Would he care?
After all I say and try would he ever come searching for me to say I love you or just run to next false love waiting arms.
I breathe each second of day for him.
Would he care?
Would he even offer me his hand out of love for all the things I would do for him?
I would always wonder about it now?
I offer him all of me.
Would he care enough to take me into his arms?
Would he be as restless as me, if he knew he is the first and last person I think about upon each day?
Will I ever hear his voice calling out my name in our heated passion his bed?
I would tread place with him, just so he could be free.
Would he care enough to write me every day as he moved about life?
Would I be doing all this for the man I love, when he has never once told me how he feels toward me?
Will he love me in the same way, as I love him?
©2009 Firestar
I Fell In Love with Photo
I saw his picture.
My heart flutters like butterflies wings.
He knew knot about me.
I found him.
I reach out to him.
Now the photo is no longer a photo I am in love with.
I want give him all my heart and soul,
But
He just keeps walking away from me.
How my heart and soul would give everything over to him, if only he called me Honey.
As someone who loves him deeper than the sea, he doesn’t see me.
As someone who loves him more completely than time and distant, he walks upon a different vision away from me.
I have wrote him poems about what he stirs deep within me,
But
He has never once told me what the poems made him feel.
I have spoken to him on the phone, he promises me, we will meet, yet now that dream is lost.
I feel in love with photo, but it was words and man that keeps me binded to him forever.
He is high profile model and actor.
I am no one, but I my heart and soul loves more each passing second upon a single day.
I know his life is fast pace.
He makes me weak like a child needing his help to walk.
He makes dream of wicked things upon a bed of endless lust and wondrous dreams.
I fell in love with photo of man that is everything to me.
Why can’t he love back me?
I would walk from heaven to hell for him.
I would lie, cheat and steal to make all his dreams come true.
Now in his time of need….
He is so far out of my reach.
My love is too deep.
My love is too strong.
I fell in love with the man not his photo, I now see.
©2009 Firestar