Johnnydevil's blog: "Real Fu-Kin Life."

Ahh it’s been awile and it might be an even longer while. As many of you may or may not know, I’ve been on this site for almost three years. Through many ups and downs, highs and lows, personal and mostly not so much, I’ve always been well, pretty much the same. You knew what to expect when you came here. You knew what I was going to say in a shoutbox conversation or a message. What not to expect from me: cash , blings , camera shows , lounge drama and phone calls. Yeah there’s a cute owl. That was cute back in the day when the site was more of a tighter knit community and people “got” the joke. There were many 20 hour days on here, many countless and sleepless nights. Many angles, many plots, many schemes. Did many of you know that at one point I was #23 in Top Scores, #7 Legend and got as high as Red overall Top Member #9? Did you know that me and my gf were the only Red top member real-life couple (she was #4 and I was #9)? .. That was nearly two years ago. A lot has changed since then. There’s the never ending fight against the cheaters, fakes and fu scum. The manipulators, the liars, the scammers. The Fakebusters. And now one thing more prevalent now than ever : The Greed. This is a different place now. Run by bombs and cash. All from people that 95% chance being, you will never meet in real life, whether you plan to or are doing whatever it is you are doing. As much as I can whimsically think about the “good ol days” and chuckle at the screenshot archives of days gone by, think about the countless hours and days spent on this site, I can honestly say it has a special place somewhere in the course of time and space, as it does in so many people’s lives. Funny that most of those screenshots don’t have any images of Angels, Demons or Lost Souls or Cherry Bombs in them. And like so many that have moved on, there will be those that will never move on. So many say “ I don’t care anymore” about rates, points, etc. Funny how in this surreal amount of point and rate gathering that many of those are the ones that are “still there.” Lifers. Even so many that have taken this place to a real level, are still there. Still on here, still up there and doing the same things. Fubar is an addiction. That hasn’t changed. There are days that I wish I can go back to those days. The chases, the points, the rates and the insane level of drama that really goes on up there. Then there are days I thank God that I do not do those things anymore. Of late, the latter has been my occupation. I’ve saved a lot of money. I never spent like those people. I could. But I can’t for I know that the money could be better spent on plane tickets and real vacations, homes, cars and things of the real life ilk. Like always, I say do what makes you happy. If spending it is that makes you so, and living the “fantasy”, don’t let anyone stand in your way. I’ve been there many times over. Enjoy the site for whatever time and energy you feel you can devote to it. But like anything, moderation is key. I’m tired of the lies. Tired of the hypocrites. Tired of the fake messages. Tired of fighting. For what? Sure people look at it. People read it. Lives are touched and people are saved from themselves. But bring what change does it do in the grander scheme? Drives away and kills the will of the good and feeds the obsession and seemingly rewards and acknowledges the wicked. Sometimes in a most public form. Condone you have done. Let your eyes not deceive you with those angle pics sprawled all over the Tops and too good to be true images. They are. You’ll never touch them. Real or not. Never. No matter how much you spend. People move on, to different sites, different ventures, different ways of life. How can someone have Auto 11’s on 24/7? Does it mean that much to you? That’s a mortgage or a weekend in Las Vegas. I have done more and effected more than anyone or any amount of points on here could ever do. Far and away the only blog that is ranked as high and viewed as much as it is that isn’t a female dropping pimp outs or some random graphic in their blog that any dude will rate just because the pink is in their alert box. People actually came here to read what I had to say, wow imagine the novel concept. Is it appreciated, acknowledged? I used to think so. These days, not so much. Some might say it’s drama. Is it drama when you’ve spent thousands of dollars to get where you are, only to have some cheater or someone with a fake profile or thousands of fake profiles used to create and break rules unabashedly and in some circles condoned and acknowledged? Your bill is in the mail. What happens when that comes and the fuse on the bomb runs out? Unfortunately, the reality is back. Fubar is about attention. So was Lost Cherry and Cherrytap. Attention that maybe so many cannot get or receive or have never experienced in the real world. And a shame that is. People need to smell a flower. Would you believe I had a top rated blog on Myspace in 2005 before I quit to come here? Didn’t get there because of my good looks. That’s for sure. For me, I’ve lost the will to do any and all of it anymore. Am I deleting? Of course not. Too much time invested and money as well. Will I be back? Maybe. Maybe one day. But until the time is right, just can‘t do it anymore. I’ve seen and am seeing too many things that just make me logout more and more faster and faster every day. I’m not the Fu Police. I tried to make a difference and open eyes. I wonder if I did…only time will tell and those that have carried on the torch to some degree will just have to go forward from here. I can't even get a tune in here so it’s fitting. Until some time in the future that may or may not come, listen to the new song on my page, remember the good times, and be good to one another, peace….