NTZ's blog: "A Return Of Thought"

Tough luck huh?  I feel I try to give the best of me but it never gets appreciated, better yet it never gets noticed at all.  Overshadowed by what is perceived. Which always brings a request for me to show more of what I say I feel.  I thought I do.  I thought I did. Then I guess its alright just more  is wanted.  Not on the same stage but one that is bigger.  Not bigger to me, to me its a stage that's just fake.  Well, ok here goes.  With sincere intentions, words, and gestures I give in and throw myself in the light.  SHOWTIME!  Doesn't take long and the feelings express my way becomes sorrow.  Guess I did it wrong.  There is no complain from me when things arent done.  I believe in what was said all along. This seems to repeat and I'm lft wondering what else can I do. Maybe they can create what you need in some factory where you wont need me. As it seems i'm not enough to please what needs to be pleased. So I sigh.