This is therapy for me so bear with me.
Today - April 5th
Gathered all of Jerry's pills, dumped them all into a bowl and threw out the bottles. The bowl, that can hold half a gallon of liquid, was over half full with pills! I put the pills into the toilet and it started to clog up! The toilet was ODing!! I ran and got spoon and stirred the mix until all the pills went down. He had at least 5 different types of meds for constipation that I threw out in the garbage. If someone wants to steal them, I am happy for them...LOL! Was not sure what to do with the phentenol patches as those cannot be flushed! Daughter suggested cutting them up.
Went with Jerry's daughter and son to the funeral home to make all of the arrangements. I did good. I did not fall apart like I did when my mother died.
Cremation and no service per Jerry's request. He will be cremated tomorrow morning. They will call when we can pick up the ashes and the death certificates. They gave the flag to Jerry's son. They did not fold it tight enough as it was way too poofy!
I was flattered and honored when one of Jerry's brothers, step daughter and step son all invited me to the family reunion in June. Jerry told me he was usually 'forgotten' to be invited or told when and where the reunion is. This is the same brother that paid for the cremation so Jerry would not be "on ice" while we all struggled to find the money. Jerry's son took all the necessary information to the VA the same day so his uncle will be reimbursed by the VA.
Daughter and her friend and her dog arrive at 3pm central and are relaxing and getting ready for bed. Ordered "Steak Out" for supper. Daughter was surprised and intrigued at a restaurant that delivers steak dinners. Virginia does not have this!
April 6th
4 am I wake up and find a nose sniffing at me! I tell the Australian Shepard that I am ok, pet him a bit and he goes and lays back down. When I wake up for the day we go out to the Cracker Barrel for breakfast. I get small Easter stuffies for 2 of my new 'grand' kids. Food was good. After eating we come home to check on dog and then they take me to the zoo for the day.
Daughter in law called to make sure I was ok at the instance of her hubby. Step daughter called to make sure I was ok at the instance of her hubby and added if I feel uncomfortable being alone I can stay with them. Nephew came by to meet my daughter and see how I was. Jerry's brother in Fla. called and left a message saying he will call back to make sure I am ok.
April 7th
I get up early again on my own. The funeral home calls. Jerry is ready to be picked up. Daughter takes me there to get his ashes. The box was heavy! We set the box in the trunk and went to Wal-mart. Daughter hit a pot hole in the parking lot and I said, "Sorry, Jerry"! Bumpy roads and Jerry's back never mixed well. I got the other 2 grand kids gifts. I do not think a stuffie is appropriate for a 10 year old sport addicted boy. And the last gift--well the child is yet to be born!
Later that evening daughter and her companion ("guy" friend..not boy) took me to Olive Garden and we stuffed ourselves. I had a mudslide for dessert. Best time for it. So much food in the stomach, there is no way to get tipsy. All I did was taste the Irish Creme when I burped! Daughter and her companion, who also calls me "mom" (He tells me he wished I was the one that raised him as his mom....well, I wll leave it there), got their desserts and I wished I had a camera for the expressions on their faces when they ate them!
Got home and they took a nap before leaving at 3 am to head home. Again I woke up early on Easter morning.
I am grateful for the distractions. I got several touchy moments when they are here. They were there for me. Recieved more meds from the hospital for Jerry. They went down the toilet.
I am also grateful for the promise these kids here have kept with their father. At least so far...or until the insurance money gets here. Will see what happens after that is here and dispersed!
I now have the task of finding a job and dealing with lonliness. A new friend of mine tells me finding the job will be alot easier.
