things that make me go @#!!@@$%$%#@! about Vegas.
two for the bother of one.
Before I start on this twofer I need to clear up a few thing. one when I say Vegan I do not only mean folks born here! So I mean the folks that have been here long enough to become one of the dammed, that team in this waiting room for hell that is Vegas , under the cheap eats and glitter. Two I will be talking about real folks in my life no names a course but real folks and Ill be saying things that might not be wise to say, to these folks I say sorry if the truth hurts it didnt do me that good either, and to the folks not mentioned or are only in passing that are grooving on the dirt Im spreading around I say F$#!#k you, go be petty little ghouls some place else.. and three. Im not drawing my self as a poor victim , yes I got screwed . but Im a full grow man and I let it happen to me. Sometime willing some times as a deluded fool . Either way no one twisted my arm. clear!?
okay the first thing on my hit parade is friends in Vegas. In this town there is no just thing as real friends in most case's yea there a few exception . like my roomy Sue, but in general friend or not real in this town. the folks in this town have no need for real friends they cost to much! Real friend go out of there way to help each other and that means even when they are pissed at each other or disagree with each other friends are forever. Okay, I just got my kick back from hallmark :P . In this shallow soulless town thats is not the case in most cases its like this if your not doing them or using them there not to be bothered with. Like I told a certain ex-girl friend that I am friends with. All your friends are not equal theres a pecking order or should I say pecker order to your friends . Friends you still want to fuck or you can use without to much trouble are treated better and get to have more time with you. Then the ones your tried of fucking or have gained a clue about you, or have been burn to the point where they know more then you want them to know about your true self you opened up to and let that mask slip, or are just used up! You know what ? She was not happy about me getting in her face about this but I didnt get a single your wrong out of it. I got a ( I know what you mean.) Thats all! Sad but true if there was shame or a inkling of regret I could not see it. or maybe Im just to tired of hoping for some hint of humanity out of town to see it anymore... who knows, as I normally do when these fact about Vegas dawned on me in my little brain I started talking to folks
around me folks I know at home, at stores I shop at work coworkers ,friends and even customers and I got a 85-90% your right out of it. That scares me because a lot of the folks I talked to are what I would call Vegans and they agreed , thats it's true. Some went as far to say that they have done it to others and had it done to them without a blink or clue that its just wrong!!! Its like a normal thing here. Sheesh! now I have a few friends here that I think are either for real or get what they want from me without having to screw me raw in the effort.
Its so sad that I can not be sure this town has made me that bitter. and I hate myself just a little bit more because of it.
SECOND.
The need for appearance in this town.
Okay, I know what your thinking . you say oh! Im going to rant about HOW fake this town is well kind of , But only in the way we all here do not what to talk about. Sure there more glitter and flash in this town then a Mardi Gras parade float, and more plastic and silicon in the so called women and some of the men , in this town, then a glass and plastic factory pump outs in a score of years but we all know that. What I want to talk about is this strange and shadowy habit of folks of keeping appearance. how can I say it?? Its bullshit? Its fucked up? Its so mental! Yea I could but that would be all too simple and would not give this grand cluster fuck of Mount Rushmore proportions the credit and spotlight it deserves. Lets set the stage for understanding okay?? where I come from when you screw a person lie to them trick them... play them . What have you. They get to chew you out and if the person can or want to .They get a shot at trying to nail you to the wall and watch you bleed!!! Its fair blood for blood . Pain for pain. That is if they choose that path.
They might just want to scream and moan and mourn their loss or there foolishness, and maybe show to the world what kind of stinker the villain really is in there little life drama to the world. But no!! Not in this town!!!! No no no no!! Not in this town!! Youre suppose to handle betrayals and broken hearts like your a gamblers . Yep! you put your bet ( your heart, your soul, your future) on the felt and roll those bones, play those cards. and if you win you can strut and crow! But if you LOSE you are suppose to bow your head and wander off in to that goodnight without a whimper and if you have the bad tastes to scream that the deck was stacked against you or if you were flat out cheated never even given a chance . You become the rude stupid fool that dare complain that his or her heart get ripped out, the house must keep its image!! No matter what it did to the sucker!!! The house must keep the game going till that that one big score!! The dream score! The one they have waited for ?? 5years 10, 12 , there whole life. What ever . The game must keep going till then and all the suckers till then are just blood and tears and jism to grease the gears of the juggernaut roaring towards that score!!!
With out rights or worth. fair huh? I think not cold yea fair no.
There you go Im done for today.
But there more on the way Im going to be doing more then a few of they thing that make you go_______ about Vegas . blogs.
Okay for the folks that cant or dont want to understand my imagery, I am going to put it into one simple paragraph in plain English The second part of this blog Means this
Where I come from there is an unwritten code, a social regulatory and protection network, set into place. If a person does something to another person, in their same social group, They are judged by their peers, members of said social group and are punished accordingly. If the offense is grandiose enough they are ostracized from said group. And all other social group connected to the core social group are warned about this person. This is not done in bitterness or malice. It is done to protect the whole and to stop the perpetuation and bitterness of people in the group. We have all met people that have been scared beyond recovery, this is how we try to minimize that kind of tragedy. A human soul is a precious thing. There is no such thing in this city its an uncaring machine that chews up the soul and spits in out in the gutter. I think its a crime to humanity and to yourselves.
