I'm such an idiot. I really am, and now i'm bitter, and depressed, have no confidence.
It's like the Ed situation all over again. How can someone be soo shallow, and hurtful and not realise what they're doing? Do they not know that I have feelings to. I'm not shallow.
You knew me before, and you know me now. What's changed?! Please tell me, because i didn't lie, or decieve you. I didn't give you false pics and i never admitted to be petite or skinny. EVER.
I know i'm overweight. Trust me, i know it better than anyone. But I live with myself, I have to. There's nothing I can do this instant to make it disappear. Life doesn't work like that. Life never works the way you want it to.
Just give me another chance, look at me and think how you did before. Look at me and see what's on the inside for fucks sake. See me. That's all I ask.
You know, it really fucking hurts, and it's not the first time it's happened. It it most probably won't be the last. I know that i'll face this for life, but no one has the right to ever judge me. ever.
Save me from the nothing i've become......
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