kinda having a sucky ass day, i really dont want tobe alone anymore, but at the same time im enjoying the freedom, i have friends downstairs that fight all of the time and then make up just to keep the spark alive and i been fight free for 3 years now. i come home to robbie and go to bed alone. when i do get company at night i wake up alone... it makes someone like me feel bad. yes i like someone ( yet again) but no im not wearing my heart upon my sleeve or am i getting my hopes up into the clouds, it feels nice to be giggly and flirting and feeling like someone might like me back, i wont lie or hold back what i feel.. hell that is what blogs are for right. so but ya know if something comes up and either one of us finds something we dont like and leave it at a friends level, i wont go physco crazy and be a stalker.. that aint me, ill just be sad for a day then move on... ya see that is what i think is wrong in this world, people are holding thiere actions in the past for way too long and it keeps them from finding happiness and so they get depressed and bitchy and i think they need to let go and move on... ill be sad this weekend only because of the fact that im alone, but "trying" to do something about it, but ill be camping and being the romantic person that i am sitting beside a fire wrapped in a blanket alone is just a cause for tears... and it will prolly bring back some old memories that need to be replaced with new ones. but advise for myself is to hold my head high and just keep thinking that my someone is out there somewhere, i just wish he where here now *sigh*
