Why is it that when you are Happy and feel so full of life, that nothing ever gets you down? When you are down and feel lonely, why is it so hard to get back up? I have been on such a high elevation of happiness these past 7 weeks, I can barely contain myself, then, BAM, like a hammer to the forhead I feel myself falling to the ground. Is it that the one person I want to be closest to, is too far away to be close to? A simple voice on the phone, a few words on the internet, an email, anything to turn me back up. Without her for even 8 or ten hours of conscience thought and I feel so alone, yet I know that she is there, in my heart, I can feel it. I spent over 16 months in training and Iraq, was married, and did not feel this alone, of course I thank my Brothers and Sisters in Arms for their steadfast support and companionship during that time. However, I can't stop thinking about her, no matter what the circumstances are, she is always there on my mind, in my thoughts. I feel better just writing my thoughts down, but that too shall pass, again, I head off into the place that is so lonely, LIFE. Maybe I am being selfish, but I want to be with her, near her, somewhere close to her. It's as destiny has called upon us to meet, now what? I guess only the future knows, but I will be responsible for myself and my actions and pursue such wonderful adventures to insure destiny was right.
