D Turner Gaming's blog: "Viper's Random Thoughts"

I was just going through some old shit of mine and I've realized that its been so damn long since I've really put any of my thoughts down that maybe I can take the time to write some down here.

 

Since my last posts on here 10 years ago, quite a bit has changed in my life. I've gotten older (which is a given), I finally earned my GED (2011), started college in 2012 on and off...on right now and expecting to graduate with a B.S in Information Systems with a concentration on Computer Forensics in 2021 from Strayer University...married back in 2008, seperated since 2010 and pending divorce since 2013. A lot of people from my past are long and gone from my life though some remain in my actual life more so than my online life. 

Recently diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder and being treated properly hopefully. Feeling the most stable I've been all my life. Family life is what it is. My in-laws care more than my blood family it seems.

 

But enough rambling on. I just needed to get some thoughts out to clear the cobwebs out. No one will really read it but if you do, then ty for staying for my rambling.

I don't fucking know what it is about me but I find a girl I like, I fall hard for her and then I get completly fucked over in the end of it all even after she offers me some form of hope. I cannot for the life of me get a grasp on the understanding of it all. I mean what the fuck is someone suposed to do when they think they have some ray of hope and just end up finding out that it was a false pretense. Now I wont say I didn't bring it down upon myself but I just don't know anymore. I'm sick, I'm tired and I'm severaly strung out from one relationship to another just to finally figure out that it wasn't shit for anything.

Alrighty folks business is slow as usual and well hopefully some folks will read this and pass it on. I'm look for graphic editing requests for my graphics page, Dark Soul Graphics. At the moment I can mearly do physical edits and I cannot do gif images or animated for now but will hopefully get that part up and running soon. Examples of works are posted in my Edited Pictures folder here on Fubar and my graphics page is located on Myspace. I can do different works from what my examples show and I have 2 other people I work with that can do more advanced graphic requests if I cannot do your request myself. All details are on Dark Soul Graphics and links to the other members are also located on my page. http://www.myspace.com/darksoulgraphics

Yep you heard right. I need a new skin for my profile. I figured I'd get around to updating everything on my page so all I need now is new skin and I'm wondering if anybody out ther knows how to make them and if they do can they make me a kick ass one? In other news, I have a graphics page up and running up on Myspace called Dark Soul Graphics. So feel free to check out some of my work in my Edited Pictures folder here on Fubar, or feel free to check out my graphics page. And while your there feel free to check out my main page, Soul Reaper. Http://myspace.com/darksoulgraphics

Hellz ya folks I turned 20 yesterday! Got a shit load of gifts here on Fubar and got some great birthday wishes on here and Myspace. Thanks to all for making my birthday yesterday hella special!! :D

Well my step-dad has been on my ass to get a job but my biggest problem is that I'm basicly a built-in babysitter for my parents and I can't very much get a night job due to my lack of transportation. Well for the past few weeks he's been threatening to kick me out on my upcoming b-day so I've been trying to talk to some of my friends about staying with them until I can get on my feet but so far the effort has bared no fruit and well I have very limited finaces. I know some of you would ask why not ask family? Well I would but eather they are too far away, wont take me in or I've detached myself from that end of the family. So I donno what I'm going to do at this point.

Well I must say that the Stars & Stripes fireworks in Downtown Mt. Clemens here in Michigan was everything I expected it to be. Large crowds, lots of fun and some killer fireworks. Ended up going with a couple ex girlfriends of mine but it didn't stop me from seeing too much. Only shitty part about last night aside from me not having a car or license and the heavy traffic downtown, I ended up walking 10 miles home. Only other thing that really killed my day was hearing from another resent ex of mine who apparently called to throw in my face that she got knocked up by the guy she's barely been with for two months now. She's a month and a half pregenet and she's only 16 to boot. Doesn't much matter to me personally because for one its not my kid so its not my consern and two I'm not about to let her get into my head and get my depression going as bad as it was the whole time me and her were together. On a lighter note though, I'm not as sore as I thought I would be today from the 10 mile walk home but eather way I wasn't home before 10 mins to 2 am EST and still didn't end up falling asleep until 4 am. And I'm kind of excited about the comming week. 4th of July party here at the house, hopefully getting my practice permit so I can finally get my license and hopefully have that out of the way fairly soon, then that coming weekend my best friend's highschool graduation party so this should all turn out to be fairly intresting if all goes well enough.

I know its been a long time since my last blog entry but I figured since I'm bored I'd get another one up. For those of your that actually read blog entries, I have a shit load of phtos for ya'll to rate and comment on. Although the points wont do me any good until I can finally get a salute photo up, it always nice to see that my friends leave me some love :D So get to it if you already haven't done so and until next time, I'm gonna grab me a rubber chicken, some super glue, vasaline and head out to the local shelter for some entertainment lmao! P.S for those intrested in reading it, I have some poetry I'd love some more feedback on! http://www.thestarlitecafe.com/perl-bin/base/search.cgi?name=Lordviper

I'm starting to realise more and more everyday that I proably have some of the most obsessive friends ever. Now maybe its just me but take a look at this from my stand point for a moment. Now I don't know if I'm just too kind or just too much of a suck up when I know I've been an asshole but I'm one of those guys who has little or no guy friends in real life and it seems to me that even if I try to be just friends with them, I get them liking me more then a friend. Now mind you that yes its more then likely my fault I understand that far for being such a natural flirt in the first place. Lately some of the girls I've dated have gotten extreamly jelous because of this and proably for good reason but I can't not be myself because then I wouldn't be me but then again I don't intently flirt especially when I know I have a girlfriend. I'd love for someone to give me some better advice then what I've been getting on how ot avoid this problem all together.

Yayness! I gots a CT Licence now! I'm so happy its so kick ass! Now maybe I can finally get that alchol I've been wanting lol