Well today was a bit better. Last night I went and looked at a 1994 Ranger. Its a beautiful truck. The guy said if it hasnt sold by Monday he will call and let me know and maybe hold it for me when I get my money released on Tuesday. The man that I love still will not talk to me. I went out and got this little makeover, but it didnt do any good. Being abandoned sucks. My children are now feeling the effects of him abandoning us. My son has issues anyways getting close to anyone. he was starting to get close to Charles. Now he feels abandoned all over again. Hes been inconsolable for days now. I think the damage is really done. I dont think anyone is going to be able to reach him now.