It wasnt like I planned it, what I've done
I've been lost and trapped in darkness
now that I'm out it's finally quiet
there's no more screaming from the pain
I step back to reality
and find that no one likes the way I found to be happy
not that I expect less
it's how it's always been:
I have to crawl to keep myself, my thoughts, my choices
while all around my voices tell me to do it their way
it sickens me, knowing that it's always gonna be
this hard to be happy
no regrets, this is how I live, how I survive
no choice but mine, fuck giving in
I'm gonna live, I don't wanna lose my friends
but I've gotta be me, I need to do things my way
to be able to breathe
