have you ever had one of those days the just grab you by the balls . well that has been what i have feelt like all day today.
i feel like i'm lost inside myself anymore aways doing shit for other peopele and never doing what i want to do but then such as today when i have time to do something , i set and wonder about all the shit thats going on in my life,and wonder what the fuck!!!
i just feel like im traped most of the time . and always waiting till one day to be let free. i have so many hopes and dreams but the more i think about them i see how much i have to do to even get close. i'm tired of living this life . i want my own life sooo bad.
it make me cry to think that i'm not free to do what i want when i want . and i think it has slowly started to kill me insied.
i want out!!!!!! I WANT MY OWN LIFE!!!!!! IN MY OWN HOUSE!!!! AND IF I WANT TO SLEEP UNTILL 2 IN THE AFTER NOON I CAN BECASE IT'S MY HOUSE!!! I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS AND NOT WORRY ABOUT WAKING SOMEONE UP.
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HAVE PEOPEL OVER WHENEVER I WANT THEM TO . OR CALL WHENEVER THEY WANT TO .
I'M SICK OF IT . AND I NEED TO MOVE OUT NOW. BUT LIKE ALWAYS I HAVE TO WAIT UNTILL THE DAY COMES WHERE I GET TO LEAVE.AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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