So i guess i need to go home soon for the holidays.... so not looking forward to it right now.. I have spent the last couple of weeks in total depression and have just started to come out of it.. Im so scared when i get home it will all start all over again. I miss my kids more then words can say and yes i miss steve too and my friends.. I dont know what to do... if i dont go home then im the worlds most rotten mother who ever lived... and if i do i am risking ending up right back where i just was, and trust me it wasnt pretty there. I dont think i have ever cried as many tears as i did the last few weeks, and i dont know if my mental state can handle doing this all over again.. Someone tell me what to do and how to handle this!!!!
