If I die today what would the people who knew me remember me for? For the whore everyone treats me like or just a good fuck. Who would care if i die today or found out i was dying? No I'm not going to kill myself if that what you thinking while reading this. I look at these people in my life and how they treat me as if i was nothing. A piece of ass yet they dont even try and impress me at all. Its like they can see right through me knowing all i want is to have someone who cares yet they know my past or i slept with them before. so they know i wont just give that up for fear if i dont have the meaningless relationship with them i will have nothing at all. I want so much to be able to look into someone else and see something real and yet I must be blind or the world is really just that fuck up. Everyone tells me that you get what you deserve but i understand or remember being this hard on others so i question am i really alive or just a living dead girl.
