WELL I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO THIS GUY FOR A WHILE NOW , AND HE FOUND ME ON A PERSONALS SITE, BUT ABOUT 2 YRS BEFORE THAT WE WHERE TALKING ALSO ABOUT MEETING SO WE BOTH KINDA KNEW A LITTLE MORE THEN MOST PEOPLE DO ABOUT MEETING A PERSON FROM A PERSONAL SITE, AND RECENTLY WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ON THE PHONE , EVERYTHING SEEMED FINE. WELL THIS ISA FRIDAY SO THINGS WHERE KIND OF CRAZY AND BUSY, SO HE GOT AT MY HOUSE I THINK AROUND 3:45 OR A LITTLE EARLIER, HE WAS WAITING ON MY FRONT PORCH AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT, MY DOORBELL HE SAID HE RANG I NEVER HEARD IT RING, I WAS ON THE 2ND STORY OF MY HOME, SO THEN I WAS ON MY REGULAR PHONE FOR A QUICK CALL AND MY CELL PHONE RINGS, AND THERE WHERE LATER I FOUND OUT SOME MESSAGES MY RINGER WASN'T WORKING RIGHT, SO THEN I CALLED HIS NUMBER BACK , AND HE CAME IN THE HOUSE TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT I HAD HIM COME IN MY HOUSE, I SAID I WILL BE RIGHT BACK , I WENT TO THE BATHROOM QUICK AND BRUSHED MY TEETH AGAIN, AND BY ACCIDENT I SPRAYED THE HAIRSPRAY IN MY LEFT EYE AND IT BURNED LIKE HELL, AND I COULDN'T OPEN MY EYE TILL IT DRIED BECAUSE IT WAS ON MY EYELASHES, SO I COME WALKING OUT OF THE BATHROOM , AND I'M TALKING LIKE AND IDIOT, IM SAYING WOULD YOU LIKE A BOTTLE OF COLD WATER, AND I LOOK IN MY LIVING ROOM AND HE'S GONE , I LOOKED OUT MY FRONT DOOR HIS CAR IS GONE. HE JUST GOT UP AND LEFT WITHOUT ONE WORD TO ME TELLING ME WHY, AND IF HE DIDN'T LIKE ME FROM OUR 5 MIN CONVERSATION WHICH WAS NILL, HE COULD HAVE THE COMON DECENY TO KNOCK N THE DOOR AND ASK ME TO COME OUT AND TELL ME TO MY FACE, AFTER ALL HE KEPT TELLING ME WHAT A GREAT GUY, HONEST,CARING,AND SO MUCH DIFFERENT THEN THE GUYS I HAD DATED, YOU'LL SEE HE TOLD ME JUST LAST NIGHT TO, SO IM UNBLOCKING MY WALL AGAIN AND TRUSTING SOMEONE NOT TO HURT ME. AND OMG I DIDN'T EVEN GET OUT THE FRONT DOOR WITH THE GUY, HE HAS NO IDEA WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM, HOW CARING AND LOYAL I AM, AND HOW NICE I AM , WAY TO DAM NICE IF YOU ASK ME. WELL I WAITED A FEW MINS TO SEE IF HE WOULD CALL ME NO CALL, SO I CALLED HE LET THE CELLPHONE KEEP RINGING AND LET THE VOICE MAIL PICK UP, AND I JUST SAID INTO THE PHONE THAT IT WASN'T RIGHT WHAT YOU DID TO ME , WHAT IS WRONG, IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE ME YOU COULD HAVE JUST SAID SO, PLUS WHAT WASN'T THERE TO LIKE IF YOUR SUCH A NICE GUY AND YOU DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE AND YOUR LAID BACK , AND IM A WAY WAY TO NICE OF A PERSON TO GET STIFFED NY ANYONE. WELL I CALLED 3 TIMES, I KNOW I SHOULDN'T HAVE,NO ANSWER. SO I WENT ON MY COMPUTER JUST TO DO SOMETHING BECAUSE I WAS VERY UPSET, AND IM THINKING ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHAT THE HELL DID I DO THAT WAS SO BAD THAT HE JUST LEFT LIKE THAT, OR WAS IT THAT HE DIDN'T LIKE SOMETHING ABOUT ME, WHO KNOWS, BUT ANYWAYS HE MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT, WORTHLESS AND UGLY, EVERY GUY I HAVE EVER MET IS TRASH, A DRUNK, LIES ,CHEATS AND I MEAN CHEATED FOR 6 YRS AND I DIDN'T KNOW TILL RECENTLY, AND OF COURSE THEN COMES THE ABUSIVE MEN, WELL IM NOT TAKING BS FROM ANYONE ANYMORE, AND I MADE THAT DECISION A FEW MONTHS BACK WHEN I FINALLY GOT RID OF MY EX CHEATING BF. WELL TO END THIS I AM CRYING , AND I WAS SO DEPRESSED I COULDN'T STOP, THIS HAPPENS TO ME ALL THE TIME, I DON'T KNOW WHY I DON'T JUST GIVE IT UP. MEN DON'T WANT ME THEY WANT SOMEONE ELSE I HAVE NO IDEA WHO BUT NOT ME. SO I SEE I GOT A MESSAGES ON MY CELL PHONE AND I'M LOOKING AT IT, SO I OPENED IT TO SEE HOW MANY MESSAGES THERE WHERE OR IF HE WAS CALLING THEN... OH NO WAY JOSE, NO VOICE MAIL, NO PHONE CALL IT'S A FREAKING TEXT MESSAGE TELLING ME SORRY I HAD AND EMERGENCY, WILL CALL YOU LATER SORRY. THAT'S IT, WELL IT IS 3AM SAT MORNING NO PHONE CALL DID I GET ME, I TOLD ME 15YR OLD ABOUT IT AND SHE WASN'T TO HAPPY BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH ALL OF THIS SHIT WITH ME A MILLION TIMES AND SEE'S ME CRY AND MEN TREAT HER MOTHER LIKE SHIT, NOW MY DAUGHTER IS TOUGHER THEN NAILS, I'M GLAD SHE IS. AND I SAID TO HER WELL HE WON'T BE CALLING ME BACK ANYTIME SOON. AND SHE SAID WHY MOM WHAT HAPPENED, AND I SAID NOTHING THAT'S IT, I HAVE NO IDEA. NOW THAT IS THE RUDIEST FREAKING THING ANYONE HAS EVERY DONE TO ME ON A FIRST DATE, WE DIDN'T EVEN GET OUT THE DOOR YET. WELL MY EX BF USED TO LEAVE MY HOUSE AND NOT TELL ME AND GO HOME AND IT HURT ME ALOT TO, BECAUSE HE JUST WAS NOT A MAN AND HE HAD OTHER THINGS HE HAD TO DO LOL YEAH OK RIGHT TELL ME ANOTHER STORY. SO THIS IS JUST ANOTHER ENTRY TO MY JOURNAL I GUESS OF DATING HORRORS STORIES MAYBE I WILL KEEP RIGHTING THEM I'M SURE THERE WILL BE MORE, IF I GO OUT WITH ANYONE ANY TIME SOON, BUT I DOUBT IT... IF I WROTE A BOOK ABOUT MY LIFE AND DATING MEN IT WOULD CURL YOUR TOES. AND YOU WOULD DEFINATLEY HATE MEN THAT'S FOR SURE. SO IF YOU GUY'S WHERE WONDERING WHY I HAD THAT BANNER THINGY UP THAT SAID THAT THIS IS WHY. WELL I'M TIRED AND WORN OUT FROM CRYING IM GOING TO BED ALONE LIKE I ALWAYS DO. GOOD NIGHT SWEETDREAMS.. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
