I'm not sure what to do. I feel so alone right now. I feel like I have nowhere to go and no one to turn to. I've lost my best friend, my rock, a giant piece of myself. I don't look forward to what tomorrow brings. I know what tomorrow brings. More of today. I just keep thinking what is it going to take for things to get better? Time? I don't think so. My heart is broken, my health sucks, my family is far away. I have no friends I can turn to, no shoulder to cry on. I sit in my room and cry. I sit in my car and cry. I walk through a store and cry. I have never felt as alone as I do right now. I think I could be in a room full of people and be all alone. I'll be totally honest because you know what, I don't know any of you people that might be reading this. If I wasn't such a coward I would just say f*ck this and end it all. I can't do that though because as long as my mom is around I know that there is someone out there that cares about me and would miss me. This isn't a cry for help. I'm not gonna do anything stupid. I just need some place to get these feelings out so that they don't just eat me up inside.