...that when you try to quit doing something, like smoking, everything aggravates you? That when you are aggravated, it seems everyone and everything around you is trying to aggravate you more? That the more aggravated you get, the more you want to take someone's head off? Anger begets violence? I can see why.
Everyone in the house, all the adults that is, is trying to quit smoking. We've all taken our turns at different methods in order to try and quit without all the "pains" of withdrawal. All to no avail. What seems to work for one doesn't work for another and after awhile, seems to quit working for the one it WAS working on. Tried the gum, the lozenges, wellbutrin, chantix and now patches. None of it gets rid of the craving, has some serious side effects and does nothing for the "mood swings" you seem to get when you don't get that nicotine fix. My tongue is going to be really sore or gone by the time this is all said and done! I've been biting it for so long now in order to not bite someone's head off that I'm sure it's raw by now.
At least I have my sense of humor. Doesn't do much for the others except maybe take their minds off their cravings for a moment or two. Sometimes, that's all you need is a moment or two and then the craving is gone and you can go on about your business. But it's all those moments in a day that get to you, all those moments when you want a cigarette. My sister said some years ago she ran across some places in the South that actually sold cigarettes singularily. That's a cool idea and I wish they did that everywhere! Sometimes, all you need is one to get you through the day. I suppose though, one can lead to two and then three and so on, but when you're trying to quit, one would do.
I should do some research and find some herbs to help us cope. I'm sure there are some out there. We don't want something we have to smoke, I have those, but rather something you can make a tea out of or maybe even a capsule. I'm just too aggravated at the moment to any type of research. LOL Not to mention, I've got some homework I need to be doing and I can't concentrate on that right now either, which is also adding to my aggravation. I can't wait for all this to be done and over. Now is the time you wish you had never started smoking in the first place.
Another aggravating thing....I had quit before for about 2-3 years and then started back up again. It was easier to quit that last time and I didn't have all these withdrawal symptoms. I don't know why either. I don't know what the difference is between then and now. I wish I did so I could repeat the procedure or process.
Oh well, in a month all of this will be nothing more than a memory. I just hope the kids hold together better than we adults are. LOL As long as they remember the why, I'm sure they'll get through it just fine. So far, so good. Although I've been really good at not yelling at the kids, I sure have wanted to put a few things through the wall a time or two. LOL Ok, I'm done now, wish me luck!
