Let me just start this off saying it has nothing to do with my fu-hubby. He has let me know exactly how he feels. This is about my r/l boyfriend and he's not on here so it's safe to spill out my heart LOL
Why is it that after over a year together you can't bring yourself to tell me you love me? You know where I stand with this, I refuse to be the first one to say it, so step up and be the man I know you are. Just say it!!!!
If you aren't saying it because you don't feel that way, fine. But I figure there has to be something keeping you here with me and I seriously doubt it's the sex. I'll admit, I'm pretty good, but nobody is that good.
For at least the last 6 months, I've been wanting to say it, but I am so afraid that if I do, it will either scare you off or I will be greeted with complete and total silence like you do when Jelly says she loves you. Notice she quit saying it? She thinks you don't love her because you won't say the damn words back. It's not that hard unless, like I said, it isn't how you feel. If that's not how you feel towards us, what's keeping you here?
Remember the 2 or 3 months I kept you waiting to actually meet me and the month or so after that I kept you waiting to meet Angelica and agree to be your girlfriend? I had to make sure that number one, you were ok and number 2, there was a connection. You know what I had gone through before, and that I wasn't willing to risk her being hurt again.
Honestly, from the moment I saw you walking up to the restaurant where we first actually met, face to face, without ever seeing you or a picture of you and without hearing you speak to me then, I knew exactly who you were and that you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
I have NEVER felt so strongly about anyone in all of my life. Now, a year, 3 months, and nearly a week later, you would think we could say those three little words but no. Neither of us can seem to say it.
Let me just say, I have truly loved people in the past, but I have never loved anyone like I love you. When I hear those sappy love songs about how he makes me feel, and how she makes me feel and blah blah blah, you're the only one I think about. You make me feel like I am FINALLY living that love song. We may never say the words, but know that I truly love you.
Not to mention the VERY obvious hints I've left on myspace! Geez boy, just go look at my page!
Everyone else knows we love each other LOL. WTF is up with that? Grrrr somebody tell him to tell me already! LOL
