Why am I wasting my time on this one sided love?
He doesn't want me, he doesn't need me.
It appears he never will.
So why is this time so different?
Why am I unable to cope?
Nothing about this is making any sense.
My heart feels so gutted, like a wounded animal.
I can't seem to get a grip on my own reality anymore.
The "why" is driving me crazy.
I have no one I can talk to.
I have no friends.
It still hurts so damn much.
More than it ever has.
More than I'm used to.
The dumbest things set off my tears.
A sunset, a beautiful view, the ocean, fireworks.
Only he knows why.
I am so afraid to be alone right now.
The pain is overwhelming.
It's flooding my heart.